Jack Ford
(1997-2002)
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8 years ago....  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXX (Mum)
Jack....

It seems like yesterday you were here so full of life.

My memories spin around in my head I see your face your smile and you're here again... just for a moment.

One day without you feels like a lifetime.... 8 years today you've been gone and I cannot begin to describe the emptiness or the pain there is a hole in my soul that will never heal until we are back together again.

These song words say everything I feel Jack....

Always you will be part of me
And I will forever feel your strength
When I need it most
You’re gone now gone but not forgotten
I can’t say this to your face
But I know you hear

I’ll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I’ll see you again

When I’m lost when I’m missing you like crazy
I tell myself I’m so blessed
To have had you in my life my life

When I had the time to tell you
Never thought I’d live to see the day
When the words I should have said
Would come to haunt me
In my darkest hour I tell myself
I’ll see you again

I will see you again
I’ll see you again
I miss you like crazy
You’re gone but not forgotten
I’ll never forget you
Someday I’ll see you again
I feel you walk beside me
Never leave you yeah
Gone but not forgotten
I feel you by my side
No this is not goodbye.

I am blessed to have had you in my life thank you for choosing me to be your mum I love you Jack.... always and forever.... "to infinity....and beyond!" XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
 
Happy Birthday - Today you would be a Teenager!  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXX (Mum)

I remember when I took the test back in '97

It was a Tuesday 14th of Januari

With my eyes closed tight I waited and wished

I dared to open them

Through the tears the test was positive!

All my hopes and dreams fulfilled

On the 22nd of September

I had struggled for hours all through the night

So exhausted but all I felt

Was the overwhelming love for you

My beautiful little boy Jack


Now it's 13 years on...

I have those days so clear in my mind

But Jack you are forever 5

There's no teenage boy by my side....

The first 3 years we never knew

That you were not to stay

Neuroblastoma shattered our dreams

You fought so hard

You were so brave and strong

But it took hold

It was relentless and cruel

Jack you fought it with all your might

You laughed in the face of your demons

You never let them destroy your soul

You defied the odds the consultant gave us

10 per cent chance we were told

Yet 2 years went by.....

I learnt from you such valuable things

To live to love and to hope

Jack you gave me so much of your strength.

You made me able to cope.


I owe so much to you....



You are my sunrise on the darkest of days

You have the power to light up my heart

You were the bravest of warriors

You bestowed love friendship and peace in all you met

Your spirit lives on forever.


September 2002 you were overcome by your disease

The Angels were calling you

I had whispered to you so gently

As you lay on my bed in my room.

Leading up to Sunday to go with the Angels

but not on your birthday

I wanted memories of your birthday to remain happy...

You cried out to me from your deep sleep

The Saturday night in my bed

I held you so tightly

You were still with me the next day

Your 5th Birthday

No candles or cake that day

Just morphine and a nurse by your bedside

Although you never woke

I could feel you slowly drifting away

I begged you not to leave me then

Not on your birthday

At the moment your heart stopped beating

I felt so alone.

But I knew your suffering was over

Exactly 5 years you were here in my arms

Always making me happy

Right 'til the end Jack you looked out for me

You lasted the day you lasted the night

12.45am as I held your hand

Your heart beated for the last time

Monday 23rd September 2002



So today I remember your birthday

And the five precious years that you gave me

I remember the laughter the times that we shared

And I hold those memories dear.

Cancer can not take away the memories or destroy the bond we have.

You are my would be teenager

You are forever 5

You are still alive in my heart and mind

You will live on my there for eternity....


Tomorrow is your anniversary

The day you gained your wings

But the strength you gave to me

Will help me through that day.


Jack

My son

My love

My life

My Angel


You live on Jack always and forever...........

Shining Star  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXXX (Mum)  Read >>
Shining Star  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXXX (Mum)
When I had to leave you
I didn't go too far
Look up to the Heavens
Im a Brillant shining star
Mei this light show you
As it glistens from above
A very special thank~you
When you lifted me with love

A little star that brightly shines
A star thats free from pain
Held gently in God's loving arms
Until we meet again

As you go on your journey
Be the best that you can be
And know that God is there for you
As he is here for me

When we miss each other
And want each other near
You shine your light upon the earth
And I'll shine my light up here
So we will always remember
When we seem so far apart
To shine our lights together
With love upon our hearts
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An Angels Kiss  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXX (Mum)  Read >>
An Angels Kiss  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXX (Mum)
An Angels Kiss xxx

We go through life so often
Not stopping to enjoy the day
And we take each one for granted
As we travel on our way.

We never stop to measure
Anything we just might miss
But if the wind should blow by softly
You'll feel an angel's kiss.

A kiss that is sent from Heaven
A kiss from up above
A kiss that is very special
From someone that you love.

For in your pain and sorrow
An angel's kiss will help you through
This kiss is very private
For it is meant for only you.

So when your hearts are heavy
And filled with tears and pain
And no one can console you
Remember once again.....

About the ones you grieve for
Because you sadly miss
And the gentle breeze you took for granted

Was just......... "an angel's kiss."
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Goodnight sweet Angel  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXX (Mum)  Read >>
Goodnight sweet Angel  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXX (Mum)
*Goodnight Sweet Angel *

Wishing on a special star
Look above and there you are
Set within the sky I see
Special angel watching me
Stars all blinking shining bright
Bringing wishes every night
No more darkness that I fear
Knowing that my angel's near
Keeping light to shine on me
Cast the love so constantly
Beauty in the sky of blue
Always sparkling next to you
Softness watching from above
Casting stars so filled with love
Touch the hearts of all who care
Love abounding everywhere
Peace be found in what is there
Remnant of God's beauty rare
Glowing on the moon above
Stars that twinkle in his love
Make a wish and he'll hear you
Close your eyes dreams come true
Feel the warmth from up above
Falling down on you with love. Close
A poem written by Jo Dalton, 2009  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXX (Mum)  Read >>
A poem written by Jo Dalton, 2009  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXX (Mum)
Up in the sky our angels sleep
The beautiful angels
that we wanted to keep

As we sit here all alone
we think of only you
We think of how we love you
And how much we miss you too

We miss you like crazy
We sometimes think we are going mad
We simply can’t stop thinking
Of the beautiful angel we had

The minutes feel like hours
Hours feel like days
The clock is ticking so slowly
Since the day you went away

We know life goes on without you
We do try to get through
But life will never be as nice
As life was when we had you

Written by - Jo Dalton 2009 Close
Always Near You As You Walk  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXX (Mum)  Read >>
Always Near You As You Walk  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXX (Mum)
Always Near as You Walk

And I am no longer with you
Let no tears fall or sorrow prevail
When you see your reflection shimmer in the water
Smile and know that I see your smile
When you feel the cool grass beneath your feet
And the sun’s warmth upon your back
Know that I feel it also
When you hear the leaves rustling in the wind
Know it is my voice softly whispering to you
When you see a butterfly dancing among flowers
Know that I am dancing also
When you gently touch a puppy’s soft fur
Know that I too feel your touch
When the wind swirls across your skin
Know that it is I who caresses you
When you love another
Know that I too feel your love
These words are truth my love
Have faith my love
As long as beauty lives upon the earth and in the stars
And love lives in every beat of every heart
So then do I
So then do we all.
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I'll see you again - Westlife Lyrics  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXX (Mum)  Read >>
I'll see you again - Westlife Lyrics  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXX (Mum)

Always you will be part of me

And I will forever feel your strength

When I need it most
...
You’re gone now gone but not forgotten

I can’t say this to your face

But I know you hear

I’ll see you again

You never really left

I feel you walk beside me

I know I’ll see you again

When I’m lost when I’m missing you like crazy

I tell myself I’m so blessed

To have had you in my life my life

When I had the time to tell you

Never thought I’d live to see the day

When the words I should have said

Would come to haunt me

In my darkest hour I tell myself

I’ll see you again

I will see you again

I’ll see you again

I miss you like crazy

You’re gone but not forgotten

I’ll never forget you

Someday I’ll see you again

I feel you walk beside me

Never leave you yeah

Gone but not forgotten

I feel you by my side

No this is not goodbye

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Still / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXX (Mum)  Read >>
Still / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXXX (Mum)
STILL

 There are still days and moments that.....I can't believe it.

 There are still days and moments that.....I won't believe it.

 There are still days and moments when the pain is every bit - if not
 more - unbearable than ever.

 There are still days and moments that I wonder how I will take one
 more step.

 There are still days and moments when I do take one more step and  see that it makes no difference.

 There are still days and moments when I want to hit smack scream at  and rage to everyone and everything.

 There are still days and moments when the pain is palpable and I feel shooting pains in my heart as it breaks a bit more.

 There are still days and moments when the wonderful memories aren't enough; they just don't cut it.

 There are still days and moments when I want to (and do) curl up as a fetus and cry: I AM THE CHILD and I HURT.

 There are still days and moments.....and I expect there will be many more.

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Birthday and Anniversary Poem 2009  / Lena Court (Mum. XXX )  Read >>
Birthday and Anniversary Poem 2009  / Lena Court (Mum. XXX )
I often think back to 1997
My first born son who now lives in heaven.
The day he came was hard and so long
But I never dreamt of a day he'd be gone.

He was so perfect a beautiful face
Nothing that anyone could ever replace
Five fingers Five toes... all in between
The biggest blue eyes I'd ever seen

The beautiful smile that could light up the dark
“isn't he gorgeous” - always the remark
Everyone loved him but none as much as I
An eternal love that will never die

I named him Jack which means God's Gracious Gift
His presence had the power to uplift
The heaviest of hearts the saddest of spirits
Jack was of outstanding merits

He came to me when all hope was lost
The precious moment replenished all cost
Of the heartache in years of trying
Years of hoping...years of crying.

We were told to conceive naturally
Would be an impossibility
Jack chose us to be his family
Against all odds he showed supremacy.

I often think back to 1997
My first born son who now lives in heaven.
I remember the day as if it just past
That moment in time was unsurpassed

That moment in time when all was ideal
The dreams of motherhood all became real
My heart filled with happiness I felt elated
Deep within a seed of love had been planted

For all his life that seed did grow
The strongest love you could ever know
The closest bond the firmest ties
And the love reflected in his eyes

He showed how the love grew in him too
He bestowed it in everyone that he knew
He loved everything this world can hold
He had a heart made of pure gold.

When Jack turned 2 he had a brother
The same perfection born in another
I named him Charles we call him Charlie
His name means a Man who is free.

The bond between my boys grew strong
When needed Jack would help Charlie along
He was at his side morning til night
The closeness between them a heart warming sight.

I often think back to 1997
My first born son who now lives in heaven.
We wanted a child so much for so long
But I never dreamt of a day he'd be gone.

Although Jack can no longer be seen
No longer be held he's in our dreams
I am sure he still walks at our side
Helping us through being our guide.

He planted that seed of love in my heart
It continues to grow we'll never part
The closest of bonds the firmest of ties
But now we have so much pain in our eyes

Pain in our minds pain in our hearts
Confusion despair at why we should part
With someone we love so dear and so true
To outlive your child is what no parent should do.

Charlie was 3 when Jack went away
The last time he saw him was Jack's “birthday”
We'd brought  it forward for we did know
That Jack was weary it was his time to go

They opened the presents they shared the fun
We had people round a chance for everyone
To share in Jack's last birthday on earth
We made it a happy one for all our worth

Charlie never saw his brother again
How could my 3 three year old deal with his pain
One day he shadowed Jack...but then he was gone
Charlie lost his big brother he'd had all along.

I am his mum and I couldn't explain
I couldn't protect him from all the pain
I couldn't make him understand
All I could do was hold his hand


And tell him in no uncertain terms
Jack loves him and this affirms
That he will always be his brother
A bond that is alike no other.

I often think back to 1997
My first born son who now lives in heaven.
The day be was born I'll always remember
The 22nd day of September

The memories of that date are confused
With memories from 2002
The real birthday that was his last
And the moments when he passed.

I whispered softly to Jack as he lay
Asleep in my bed all of that day
I begged him not leave me then
I wanted to remember '97 again

22nd of September was the day of his birth
I begged him to hold on for all it was worth
So I would have happy thoughts of that day
And not have them tainted with the day he went away.

Jack drew his last breath as the earth shook
His heart stopped beating and his nurse did look
At the time on the clock Jack had listened to me
He didn't die on his 5th Birthday.

12.45am Jack passed
On the 23rd day of September as asked
He saw out his birthday he answered my plea
Right til the end he was looking out for me.

I know he still is somewhere in time
In a parallel world right aside mine
Guiding me through leading me on
Giving me the strength I need to hold on

To be strong for Charlie for he is so weak
In his sleep Jack's name Charlie will speak
In his subconscious mind Jack's there all the time
Being his guide as he is mine.

Jack is my son how honoured am I
To be called his mother how grateful am I
To have learnt how to love how indebted am I
To have shared his life beholden am I

I often think back to 1997
My first born son who now lives in heaven.
You would have been 12 had you survived
But my Angel you'll be forever 5

It's 7 years tomorrow since you left my sight
But those bonds we share still hold you tight
You never really went away
You are with us every day.

Always in our thoughts Forever in our hearts.

To infinity..... and beyond!

XXXXX for the years on Earth XXXXXXX for the years in Heaven.

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In your honor I will not surrender....  / Lena Court (Ever Loving Mum )  Read >>
In your honor I will not surrender....  / Lena Court (Ever Loving Mum )
Jack, you laughed in the face of your pain and in your last waking moments you were happy, your pain didn't win, you left this world with love and laughter in your heart and You taught us so many lessons in life, how to live, how to love and how to be happy.

I have not been too good.  As well as the emotional struggle, I am facing a physical one too.  I am in suffering from Chronic Fatigue and chronic pain.  I had started to let my pain consume me and it has been stopping me from doing things because of the fears of what could be causing all my symptoms...but I don't know yet...there are so many things it could be...it could be a progressive disease...I may get worse...it may be spinal cord compression from the 3 prolapsed discs...

BUT HEY! It may not!!!!! Why have I been sitting around letting it stop me from doing things??? Jack you taught me those valuable lessons!  Life is for living, loving and laughing.  I am so tired of the negatives, I don't want them anymore. Jack, you were always so happy, no matter what you went through, you NEVER let it get you down.

So, although I can't beat my pain, I will not let it beat me... I will just have to live with it... and I WILL live and be happy!

In your honor Jack...   I will not surrender, I will fight for all my life and be the best I can. 

Please be close to Charlie, he really needs to be wrapped in Angel wings, he is so fragile, he misses you so much and I share his pain.  As an adult I cannot understand, i cannot find answers, I cannot find reason...for Charlie it's just all too much.  Please be close to him, guide him now like you did before, he followed you, he learnt from you and now he feels so lost and alone.  Comfort him.  Be his strength, be his guardian Angel.  

A bond so strong can never be broken, a love so deep can never die.  Always in my thoughts, forever in my heart. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX Close
I wrote this poem today for a friend  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXX   Read >>
I wrote this poem today for a friend  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXX
Jack, I sat and wrote this poem today for a friend, her precious son Daniel is with you now, say hi to him if you see him.

I wrote this poem and the tears streamed down my face, for I share her pain, I too see your smile when I close my eyes, I too miss you beyond belief.  I love you so much.

Little star up above,
Shine down on Mummy,
Send your love,
Wrap her in your angel wings,
Help her cope with difficult things,
As she closes her eyes
And see's your smile,
Be at her side,
Just for a while,
Gentle hold her empty hand,
Show her that you understand,
For she is struggling without you near,
Your lovely voice she longs to hear,
Guide her through her darkest days,
For she will be loving you always.

God Bless you Angel.

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My Beautiful Boy  / Lena Court (Ever loving Mum. XXXXXXX )  Read >>
My Beautiful Boy  / Lena Court (Ever loving Mum. XXXXXXX )
My beautiful boy

Seconds become Minutes,
Every Minute becomes an Hour,
Hours turn to Days,
Days turn to Weeks,
Weeks to Months
Months to Years
Years pass.
How quickly they pass.
You have taught me the fragility of life.
You have taught me how to live.
Be grateful. 
Be happy. 
No matter how dark the clouds that hang over me.

You are still here.
You never left..
I will hold you for all time.
So Deep within my heart.
You did not die.
A love so strong can not die.
A bond that can never be broken.
I see your face in my mind.
I feel your presence in my heart.
You found eternal life.
You walk with us in a parallel world.
You keep us safe.

Thank you Jack.
For all that you are.
For all that you have been.
For choosing us as your earthly family.
For giving me the honour of being your Mum.
For 5 precious years you shared with us.
For all those wonderful memories.
For the lessons you taught us.
For the strength you gave us.

You have been in Heaven longer now than you were here with me.
Please forgive my jealousy of those that hold you now.
How I long to hold you.

6 years on.
How quickly those years pass.
Until I see your face again.

Eternal love my Angel.  My Beautiful Boy. My Darling Jack.

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On your birthday.  / Lena Court (Ever loving Mum. XXXXXXX )  Read >>
On your birthday.  / Lena Court (Ever loving Mum. XXXXXXX )

September  22nd - the day of partying and fun,
presents, candles on your cake to share with everyone.
But now that day is here I cannot bare the pain,
It's not a party that I'm having  for you...
I never can again.

I am visiting your grave today, I'm bringing balloons and flowers.
I will sit on the grass and remember the past
And be thankful for every hour.

For the Five precious years you gave to me,
taught me more than you'll ever believe,
You taught me to love, the deepest love
And that it's ok to grieve.

The gentle breeze that's blowing,
will carry a kiss up above,
With this kiss I blow for you,
Comes my undying love.

Happy Birthday My Angel.

Love You, My Beautiful Boy, “to infinity....and beyond!” Close
Butterfly / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXX (Forever Jack's Mum )  Read >>
Butterfly / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXX (Forever Jack's Mum )

He was to me a butterfly, slipping into blue sky
I'm happy now, though he has flown
into the world he calls his own
on a warm wind, carried away
not to be kept
he was not meant to stay Close
When September Ends  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXX (Forever Jack's Mum )  Read >>
When September Ends  / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXX (Forever Jack's Mum )

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends


Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my son's come to pass
Six years has gone so fast
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Happy Valentines  / Traci Barnai (mommy 2vanessa )  Read >>
Happy Valentines  / Traci Barnai (mommy 2vanessa )

 

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Thank you  / Brenda Preister (another NB mom )  Read >>
Thank you  / Brenda Preister (another NB mom )
Thank you for seeking me out, I will be sure to read the entire story of Jack...and continue to fight this beast in his honor as well.

I have heard of your son I do believe, with the climb...what an amazing child.

My heart breaks for the pain you have delt with, but I do wish you the best for 2008.  Thank you for mentoring others on N-Blast...newbies like me wouldn't be able to handle this without people like you.

www.brenda-chad.blogspot.com
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What a beautiful smile you have Jack ~ Have a Heavenly Merry Christmas  / Rhonda Rhodes Craig Sehon's Mom/Joe Rhodes's Wife (visitor)  Read >>
What a beautiful smile you have Jack ~ Have a Heavenly Merry Christmas  / Rhonda Rhodes Craig Sehon's Mom/Joe Rhodes's Wife (visitor)



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MESSAGE / Sera SERA   Read >>
MESSAGE / Sera SERA

i found jacks site through jessons, i am so sorry to hear of your loss, i wanted to let me know your words on jessons site were beautiful and i am certain are a comfort to all who have lost someone dear to them.
kind & healing thoughts

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