In an Angel's Castle  / Lena (Mum)





In an angel’s castle, just beyond my eye
My Son plays with angel toys that money cannot buy.
Who am I to wish him back into this world of strife?
No, play on my precious boy, you have eternal life.
At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes my eyes,
I'll hear his gentle footsteps coming to my side.
His little hands caress me so tenderly and sweet,
I'll breathe a prayer and close my eyes and embrace him in my sleep.
Now I have a treasure I rate above all other,
I have known true glory - I am still his mother
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Why do our Angels have to leave us  / Diana Bernard (read story )

Dear Lena,
Thank you for visiting Sydney's site. I came to Jack's and what a precious Angel you have. I am so sorry for you having to endure this kind of pain and every parent that also has to go through this. Yes they have no more pain that is a blessing. These Angels taught me to be strong, if they can go through what they did and still able to smile then I can do this for them.
If you ever need to talk or up late and want to write please feel free. I am always checking. 
God Bless you and your family and I pray for you. 
Mom of Angel Sydney Marie Bernard
www.carepages.com  sydneysjourney

Diana Bernard

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Why? / Lena Court (Mummy)
WHY?



Why must my heart keep grieving,

Why do I feel so alone?

Why did you take my loved one God,

Why couldn't he stay at home?

Why did he have to feel pain,

Why did he have to die?

Why can't I go to sleep at night,

Why do I have to cry?



'My child,' said God, 'please understand,

I know your grief runs deep,

I've heard your many questions

In your prayers before you sleep;

I promised all eternity,

No death shall shadow you,

Your loved ones dwell with me above,

Up in those skies so blue.



They live with me in Heaven,

This place is their real home,

Their time on earth was through,

They learned to love, I called them home.

Your loved one is an Angel now,

Watching closely over thee,

There is no fear or pain up here,

Their soul is roaming free.



I let your loved one visit you

As you lie down in your bed,

He holds your hand and helps you pray

And gently strokes your head.

So please stop asking why he left

And dry your weary eyes,

For he is safe from harm on earth

With me, in the Heavenly skies.'





By Dawn Glenton

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My beautiful Angel  / Lena Court (Mummy)
Some-one, who is where we were nearly 5 years ago, asked a question today.

"How do I decide when his quality of life is so poor we might as well let him die? How am I as a mom ever to make that decision?????"

My darling Jack, I had to make that decision and it still haunts me now.

The hardest part of all of this was accepting you were dying and then having to let you go. I couldn't bare the thought of you being incapacitated. You were a free spirit from the start. Nothing kept you down. You fought long and hard against the demon that is Neuroblastoma. You didn't want to give in to it. Being restrained by the disease would have destroyed Your soul. You loved life and loved to be active and mobile. At the point where we were told more treatment would take that away from you, we knew it was time to let you be truelly free. Your disease returned with a vengance. It took hold of you very quickly indeed. At the end of August we were on the beach in Devon, you played in the sea with Charlie, we have such beautiful photo's and memories from the weeks before you left.  You only recieved copious amounts of Morphine for your pain and you had a big tank of oxygen to help you breathe. Slowly, but without pain, your little body began to fail. Your last days were peaceful, you slept and drifted away in your sleep.

It was hard. I have and I still do question if I did the right thing. Should I have put you through more? Should I have hung on to you and not let you go? But I always come to the same conclusion. You were too good for this world, your path of life was short. You brought love and strength to all you met and taught us all so much. You did all you came to do and no matter how long I tried to hold you for, my arms were not as strong as God's. He wanted to take you home. Only He could take away your pain. No matter how long it took, the end would have been the same, you were meant to be in Heaven. If I'd have fought to keep you longer, knowing the end result would still be the same, I would have put you through so much more pain and heartache and I felt that was selfish of me. I had to let you go so your pain would end and you would be free from those demons forever.

It is the hardest decision in the world. You try do what is right for your child. No-one can tell you what to do, everyone is different. I don't know if what I did was right or wrong, I just know that you are OK now, no more pain and suffering, free to play with all the angels forever.   I hope you understand why I let you go, although truely, I have never let you go, you are with me always in my heart.

I love you so much, my beautiful boy.  I think of you always, watch over Francesca, she still talks about you and says that she was meant to marry you, send her your strength and courage as she faces her Leukaemia demons once again.  Wrap your angel wings around her and keep her safe.

Please tell your Nanny that Charlie misses her so much now she has joined you and send strength to him and your Daddy and Grandad as they try to cope without her.

Sending you all my love as always.  Big kisses & cuddles from everyone here.  

Mummy. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

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xxxxxxxx / Jenny Craig (Passer-by)

Thank you for sharing your beautiful son Jack with us all here with our own broken hearts, but nevertheless we are all here.  Jack is so beautiful - the photograph no. 4 of him on the bath has to be one of the most fabulous smiles and happy faces I have ever seen.  I am so, so sorry for the loss of your beautiful, smiling boy.  My heart goes out to you. Jenny x

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You & your precious angel are in heart & prayers always  / Jeralyn Mom To Angel Darrell Gillis

Speak from your heart so your angel may hear you. Be still so that you may feel your angel's presence around you.

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A Sure and Beautiful Hope  / DI Gordon
My sincere condolences for your loss of little Jack and so very sorry for the sorrow you are going through.  Though with you for a short time he certainly left you with a lot of love and happy memories especially that "big hug".  I wanted to share with you words of comfort and encouragement I received when I lost my young son for I know how it continues to give me a beautiful and sure hope for the future.  For example there is a scripture in Revelation 21:4 that I found interesting.  It reads:  "And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore.  The former things have passed away."  Now death does not occur in heaven so this promise is for the earth.  Can you imagine death itself passing away!   Verse 5 goes on to say, "And the One seated on the throne said:  Look!  I am making all things new."  Also, he says:  "Write because these words are faithful and true."    It gives us the expectation of a bright and beautiful future when we will be with our loved ones again.  That is why Psalm 37:29 reads, "The righteous themselves will possess the earth, And they will reside forever upon it."   This is why Jesus said in John 5:28.  "Do not marvel at this, the hour is coming in which all those in their memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out."  What a thrill to look forward to..to have little Jack run to you with outstretched arms!  For now your happy times with Jack will be cherished. There is a free brochure 'When Someone You Love Dies'  that's a great help both in practical and spiritual ways.  In fact it begins with the true story of parents who had a loss like yours.  It shows how to deal with our grief  and how to help others as well. You will receive comfort from this information as I have.  It is free from  any one of Jehovah's Witnesses you may come in contact with or call a local Kingdom Hall of Jehovah's Witnesses.  May God's comfort, loving-kindness and holy spirit be with you. Close

sorry for your loss  / Jeanette Nan To Angel Dylan Mason (none)
i have just read about jack and my heart goes out to you all we to lost a grandson to cancer he had acute myloid lukemia at the age of 10 months and past away 5 days after is 2 birthday i hope that jack as got to be friends with dylan in heven he was such a loving littleman my first granchild and i miss him every single day and night we to have got a website for dylan if you wood like to viset it. when we lost dylan we became a regesterd charity for children with cancer as we dont wont any one els to sufer like we did if you read his story that is mummy did you will under stand wot i mean. all my love sent to jack and dylan xxxxxxxx Close

I am so sorry  / Elaine-Angel Mom Of Jessica Hess (Angel Mom/passer by )
Reading about your sweet, baby angel, Jack, it was like I was revisiting the life of my daughter, Jessica Hess.  It was almost likeit was a mirror! I wish I could hug you.  You are a very strong Mom and I pray for your healing and strength to walk this path we are walking. Please know that i am here for you anytime!
Elaine Frisk
www.jessica-hess.memory-of.com
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your beautifull jack  / Catherine Costello Steven,s Mum (none)
I am so sorry for the loss of your beautifull son  Iknow what you are going through i lost my son steven on 31/8/2004 to a brain tumor i pray that god will comfort you now you are in my prayers Close

Such a brave mom  / Abbey (Mommy to angel Eldrich )
No words can describe what you went thru during those trying times.  Only God knows why Jack has to go thru those pain.  Looking back now, I know as a mom, its better for Jack to rest then, than to go on with his sufferings.  And I'm glad that you have a little girl to look after now.  Bravo! To one brave mom! I'm going thru the process of healing also right now, feel free to visit my boy at http://eldrich-byel-ancheta.memory-of.com Close

Just For You  / Traci Barnai (mommy 2 angel vanessa )

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I am so sorry  / Traci Barnai (mommy 2 angel vanessa )
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious son, I know the pain and heartache you feel, I lost my precious baby girl Vanessa Faith in june/06 and my heart aches every day for her as yours does for your little angel Jack, I pray that our angels are together playing, laughing having fun in the heavens above watching over us knowing how we wish they were here with us today,they will be forever in our hearts something we can treasure and no one can take that away,you and your family will be in my prayers and I pray that someday are hearts may find some comfort,God Bless.
Sincerley Traci
Mommy 2 an angel

Please feel free 2 visit my precious angel Vanessa anytime www.vanessa-barnai.memory-of.com sendin love and hugs 2 u and ur family!!!!

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For your sweet Jack.  / Denise-mom Of Angel Nathanial Pannell
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Your precious little Jack  / Jane Eisele (forum friend )
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your precious little son. He will continue to be a joy to you even from Heaven. A little one as beautiful, as brave and as precious as he is will never be forgotten.

I will pray that God sends you comfort in your sorrow. May he send his angels to give your heart peace.

Love, hugs, prayers,
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For Jack's Family  / Irena Hill (Nanny to angel Kayleigh Erceg )

            





SPECIAL ANGEL IN HEAVEN

There is a special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted him
but where God wanted him to be. 

He was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though he is in Heaven
he isn't very far. 

He touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do.
I would've held him every minute
if the end I only knew.

So I send this special message
to the Heavens up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send him all my love. 


I am so sorry for your loss
what a handsome
brave littler man
I hope that the good memories
you have of Jack
out weigh the bad
hugs for you all
xoxoxoxox


Dear Mr Postman,can you send a letter from me,
I need it sent from up above to my earthly family
Please send it quick, my mummy's sad, I hate to see her cry.
Every night she prays to God and sadly asks him why.

Please let it say, I could not stay, with an Angel I had to go
I'm fine, I'm happyhere with the other babies I know
I hope it reads to Daddy, I know you love me too
I miss you lots and all the things that we had planned to do.

Grandma, how I'll miss your hugs and kisses planned for me
I know how much you'll miss the growing child that I should be
Close it with, I love you so, I'm with you in your heart
I never really left you see, I was an angel from the start. 



 http://kayleigh-erceg.memory-of.com

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Thinking of you and your beautiful angel Jack  / Gloria Darst Mommy 2. Angel Austin Darst (visitor)
Im very sorry to hear about your loss! I lost my son Austin at the age of 7 to IV neuroblastoma. Words can not express the anger I feel when I hear about our precious children diagnosed with cancer. It has been a year for us on June 10 and I miss him so much! Please know your family will be in my prayers and in my heart.
                                       Sincerely,Gloria

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So Very Sorry for Your Loss  / Melissa Eiler (Visitor~Daughter of Irwin & Renee Eiler )

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