Birthday and Anniversary Poem 2009 / Lena Court (Mum. XXX ) I often think back to 1997 My first born son who now lives in heaven. The day he came was hard and so long But I never dreamt of a day he'd be gone.
He was so perfect a beautiful face Nothing that anyone could ever replace Five fingers Five toes... all in between The biggest blue eyes I'd ever seen
The beautiful smile that could light up the dark “isn't he gorgeous” - always the remark Everyone loved him but none as much as I An eternal love that will never die
I named him Jack which means God's Gracious Gift His presence had the power to uplift The heaviest of hearts the saddest of spirits Jack was of outstanding merits
He came to me when all hope was lost The precious moment replenished all cost Of the heartache in years of trying Years of hoping...years of crying.
We were told to conceive naturally Would be an impossibility Jack chose us to be his family Against all odds he showed supremacy.
I often think back to 1997 My first born son who now lives in heaven. I remember the day as if it just past That moment in time was unsurpassed
That moment in time when all was ideal The dreams of motherhood all became real My heart filled with happiness I felt elated Deep within a seed of love had been planted
For all his life that seed did grow The strongest love you could ever know The closest bond the firmest ties And the love reflected in his eyes
He showed how the love grew in him too He bestowed it in everyone that he knew He loved everything this world can hold He had a heart made of pure gold.
When Jack turned 2 he had a brother The same perfection born in another I named him Charles we call him Charlie His name means a Man who is free.
The bond between my boys grew strong When needed Jack would help Charlie along He was at his side morning til night The closeness between them a heart warming sight.
I often think back to 1997 My first born son who now lives in heaven. We wanted a child so much for so long But I never dreamt of a day he'd be gone.
Although Jack can no longer be seen No longer be held he's in our dreams I am sure he still walks at our side Helping us through being our guide.
He planted that seed of love in my heart It continues to grow we'll never part The closest of bonds the firmest of ties But now we have so much pain in our eyes
Pain in our minds pain in our hearts Confusion despair at why we should part With someone we love so dear and so true To outlive your child is what no parent should do.
Charlie was 3 when Jack went away The last time he saw him was Jack's “birthday” We'd brought it forward for we did know That Jack was weary it was his time to go
They opened the presents they shared the fun We had people round a chance for everyone To share in Jack's last birthday on earth We made it a happy one for all our worth
Charlie never saw his brother again How could my 3 three year old deal with his pain One day he shadowed Jack...but then he was gone Charlie lost his big brother he'd had all along.
I am his mum and I couldn't explain I couldn't protect him from all the pain I couldn't make him understand All I could do was hold his hand
And tell him in no uncertain terms Jack loves him and this affirms That he will always be his brother A bond that is alike no other.
I often think back to 1997 My first born son who now lives in heaven. The day be was born I'll always remember The 22nd day of September
The memories of that date are confused With memories from 2002 The real birthday that was his last And the moments when he passed.
I whispered softly to Jack as he lay Asleep in my bed all of that day I begged him not leave me then I wanted to remember '97 again
22nd of September was the day of his birth I begged him to hold on for all it was worth So I would have happy thoughts of that day And not have them tainted with the day he went away.
Jack drew his last breath as the earth shook His heart stopped beating and his nurse did look At the time on the clock Jack had listened to me He didn't die on his 5th Birthday.
12.45am Jack passed On the 23rd day of September as asked He saw out his birthday he answered my plea Right til the end he was looking out for me.
I know he still is somewhere in time In a parallel world right aside mine Guiding me through leading me on Giving me the strength I need to hold on
To be strong for Charlie for he is so weak In his sleep Jack's name Charlie will speak In his subconscious mind Jack's there all the time Being his guide as he is mine.
Jack is my son how honoured am I To be called his mother how grateful am I To have learnt how to love how indebted am I To have shared his life beholden am I
I often think back to 1997 My first born son who now lives in heaven. You would have been 12 had you survived But my Angel you'll be forever 5
It's 7 years tomorrow since you left my sight But those bonds we share still hold you tight You never really went away You are with us every day.
Always in our thoughts Forever in our hearts.
To infinity..... and beyond!
XXXXX for the years on Earth XXXXXXX for the years in Heaven.
Butterfly/ Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXX (Forever Jack's Mum )
He was to me a butterfly, slipping into blue sky I'm happy now, though he has flown into the world he calls his own on a warm wind, carried away not to be kept he was not meant to stay
In your honor I will not surrender.... / Lena Court (Ever Loving Mum )Read >>
In your honor I will not surrender.... / Lena Court (Ever Loving Mum ) Jack, you laughed in the face of your pain and in your last waking moments you were happy, your pain didn't win, you left this world with love and laughter in your heart and You taught us so many lessons in life, how to live, how to love and how to be happy.
I have not been too good. As well as the emotional struggle, I am facing a physical one too. I am in suffering from Chronic Fatigue and chronic pain. I had started to let my pain consume me and it has been stopping me from doing things because of the fears of what could be causing all my symptoms...but I don't know yet...there are so many things it could be...it could be a progressive disease...I may get worse...it may be spinal cord compression from the 3 prolapsed discs...
BUT HEY! It may not!!!!! Why have I been sitting around letting it stop me from doing things??? Jack you taught me those valuable lessons! Life is for living, loving and laughing. I am so tired of the negatives, I don't want them anymore. Jack, you were always so happy, no matter what you went through, you NEVER let it get you down. So, although I can't beat my pain, I will not let it beat me... I will just have to live with it... and I WILL live and be happy!
In your honor Jack... I will not surrender, I will fight for all my life and be the best I can.
Please be close to Charlie, he really needs to be wrapped in Angel wings, he is so fragile, he misses you so much and I share his pain. As an adult I cannot understand, i cannot find answers, I cannot find reason...for Charlie it's just all too much. Please be close to him, guide him now like you did before, he followed you, he learnt from you and now he feels so lost and alone. Comfort him. Be his strength, be his guardian Angel.
A bond so strong can never be broken, a love so deep can never die. Always in my thoughts, forever in my heart. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX Close
I wrote this poem today for a friend / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXX Read >>
I wrote this poem today for a friend / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXX
Jack, I sat and wrote this poem today for a friend, her precious son Daniel is with you now, say hi to him if you see him.
I wrote this poem and the tears streamed down my face, for I share her pain, I too see your smile when I close my eyes, I too miss you beyond belief. I love you so much.
Little star up above, Shine down on Mummy, Send your love, Wrap her in your angel wings, Help her cope with difficult things, As she closes her eyes And see's your smile, Be at her side, Just for a while, Gentle hold her empty hand, Show her that you understand, For she is struggling without you near, Your lovely voice she longs to hear, Guide her through her darkest days, For she will be loving you always.
My Beautiful Boy / Lena Court (Ever loving Mum. XXXXXXX )Read >>
My Beautiful Boy / Lena Court (Ever loving Mum. XXXXXXX )
My beautiful boy
Seconds become Minutes, Every Minute becomes an Hour, Hours turn to Days, Days turn to Weeks, Weeks to Months Months to Years Years pass. How quickly they pass. You have taught me the fragility of life. You have taught me how to live. Be grateful. Be happy. No matter how dark the clouds that hang over me.
You are still here. You never left.. I will hold you for all time. So Deep within my heart. You did not die. A love so strong can not die. A bond that can never be broken. I see your face in my mind. I feel your presence in my heart. You found eternal life. You walk with us in a parallel world. You keep us safe.
Thank you Jack. For all that you are. For all that you have been. For choosing us as your earthly family. For giving me the honour of being your Mum. For 5 precious years you shared with us. For all those wonderful memories. For the lessons you taught us. For the strength you gave us.
You have been in Heaven longer now than you were here with me. Please forgive my jealousy of those that hold you now. How I long to hold you.
6 years on. How quickly those years pass. Until I see your face again.
Eternal love my Angel. My Beautiful Boy. My Darling Jack.
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On your birthday. / Lena Court (Ever loving Mum. XXXXXXX )Read >>
On your birthday. / Lena Court (Ever loving Mum. XXXXXXX )
September 22nd - the day of partying and fun, presents, candles on your cake to share with everyone. But now that day is here I cannot bare the pain, It's not a party that I'm having for you... I never can again.
I am visiting your grave today, I'm bringing balloons and flowers. I will sit on the grass and remember the past And be thankful for every hour.
For the Five precious years you gave to me, taught me more than you'll ever believe, You taught me to love, the deepest love And that it's ok to grieve.
The gentle breeze that's blowing, will carry a kiss up above, With this kiss I blow for you, Comes my undying love.
Happy Birthday My Angel.
Love You, My Beautiful Boy, “to infinity....and beyond!” Close
When September Ends / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXX (Forever Jack's Mum )Read >>
When September Ends / Your Ever Loving Mummy. XXXXXXXXX (Forever Jack's Mum )
Summer has come and passed The innocent can never last wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again falling from the stars drenched in my pain again becoming who we are
as my memory rests but never forgets what I lost wake me up when september ends
ring out the bells again like we did when spring began wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed The innocent can never last wake me up when september ends
like my son's come to pass Six years has gone so fast wake me up when september ends Close
Thank you / Brenda Preister (another NB mom )
Thank you for seeking me out, I will be sure to read the entire story of Jack...and continue to fight this beast in his honor as well.
I have heard of your son I do believe, with the climb...what an amazing child.
My heart breaks for the pain you have delt with, but I do wish you the best for 2008. Thank you for mentoring others on N-Blast...newbies like me wouldn't be able to handle this without people like you.
www.brenda-chad.blogspot.com Brenda Preister - mom to Charli Ann Close
What a beautiful smile you have Jack ~ Have a Heavenly Merry Christmas / Rhonda Rhodes Craig Sehon's Mom/Joe Rhodes's Wife (visitor)Read >>
What a beautiful smile you have Jack ~ Have a Heavenly Merry Christmas / Rhonda Rhodes Craig Sehon's Mom/Joe Rhodes's Wife (visitor)
i found jacks site through jessons, i am so sorry to hear of your loss, i wanted to let me know your words on jessons site were beautiful and i am certain are a comfort to all who have lost someone dear to them. kind & healing thoughts x
Beautiful Little Angel. / Joan Taylor. (None.)Read >>
Beautiful Little Angel. / Joan Taylor. (None.)
Hi. I am so deeply sorry to hear about you losing your little Boy. My heart and prayer's go out to you. Jack is watching over you all the time. And he is waiting for the day when he will see you once again. When God comes for your hand and leads you to your little Jack. Then you will be together for ever in God's Kingdom. Your Jack will be playing nicely with all of God's little children. Sweet Little Jack Good Night & God Bless You Alway's. Love & Lot's Of Hug's To All Of Little Jack's Family. From Joan Taylor. England. If You Would Like To Visit My Cat Tibby Here Is Tibby's Address. http://www.myfriendtibby.com Thank You For My Visit. Joan Taylor. Close
my heart breaks for you all in your loss / ^i^Jacob's Mum (An Angel too )Read >>
my heart breaks for you all in your loss / ^i^Jacob's Mum (An Angel too )
Dear ^i^Jack's family I found your link on ^i^Sidney's page I hope you don't mind my visitng your Angel's page You Jack was such a beautiful child and my heart breaks for you all My son Jacob tried to hang on for his Birthday but went to heaven the day before ..I'm so happy that your Jack had his birthday here with you ...I know you miss him with every beat of your hearts with love from one Angel's mother to another Jacob's Mum www.caringbridge.org/me/jacob Our Aussie Angel flying high on eagle wings Close
Missing you on your birthday... / Lena Court (Your ever loving Mummy. XXX )Read >>
Missing you on your birthday... / Lena Court (Your ever loving Mummy. XXX )
Your Birthday.
Did you think I might forget, Because you are no longer here? Never, ever think that, I'll never miss a year.
I cannot send a card now, That priviledge has gone. But the loving never stops, That goes on and on.
Always on your birthday There is someone that will remember, It will always be a special day And not a dying ember.
A Special Son
People try to help me, Everyone is so kind, But no matter what they say to me, I always seem to find..
They look at me with sympathy, In a caring sort of way, I thank them and attempt to smile, Then as I walk away..
The tears start welling up again, Every time it is the same, I simply fall to pieces, At the mention of your name.
I wish I could go back in time, And live it all again, I seem to spend each waking hour, Just remembering when..
You were here to share this life, And everything was fine, With you, it seems I had it all, The entire world was mine.
I know that you're in Heaven now, And my heart is filled with pain, But God will take care of you, Until we meet again.
I'll bring your flowers in the morning, I'll bring 10 candles too, send the breeze to blow them out as I sit and dream of you.
I cannot describe the emptiness inside, I cannot believe you went away 5 years ago on Sunday, time cannot erase my pain, neither can it be eased. I close my eyes and I see you, I want so much to reach out and hold you in my arms. Have a wonderful Birthday weekend, both your Earthly birthday tomorrow and your Heavenly birthday on Sunday. Rejoice, laugh, sing and play freely with all the Angels, Forevermore.
As your birthday approaches... / Lena Court (Ever loving Mum )Read >>
As your birthday approaches... / Lena Court (Ever loving Mum )
My beautiful boy, my heart is heavy and I'm feeling weak, It seems like yesterday, Yet as this weekend approaches, It's five years since you went away.
Saturday would be the day of partying and fun, presents, candles on your cake to share with everyone. But as Saturday draws further near I cannot bare the pain, It's not a party that I've planned for you... I never can again.
I will visit your grave on Saturday, I'll bring balloons and flowers. I will sit on the grass and remember the past And be thankful for every hour.
For the five precious years you gave to me, taught me more than you'll ever believe, You taught me to love, the deepest love And that it's ok to grieve.
As your birthday approaches, I'm sitting here writing this, I'm watching the sun shining into my window, And I'm blowing you a kiss.
The gentle breeze in the trees outside, will carry this kiss up above, With this specail kiss for you, Comes my undying love.
Sunday is the anniversary of the day you went away, But with love as strong as mine, In my heart you will always stay.
God bless you my Angel, today, tomorrow, "to infinity.... and beyond!" Close
Something Special / Traci Barnai (mommy 2 vanessa )Read >>
Something Special / Traci Barnai (mommy 2 vanessa )
Great website for Jack / Lou/grandmother To Josh Dailey (NB SUpport Group ) I am so happy you made this page for Jack.I do want to come back & read more about his journey. I am so SORRY he lost his battle so early in his life. I know God has aplan for you........ your post was so uplifting today on the list. Stay Strong , I think Jack will on you for helping someone else that's walking in the path that he walk. (you know he is happy) Faith, NB HOPE for a cure. Lou/grandmother to Josh (15) dx.NBIV 6/01-remission 4/02
Our condolences / Connie Mccormick
I was brought to your site via Christopher Ramsey's caringbridge site. We know all too well how difficult it is to lose a child. Our beautiful grandson of only 18 months, Ryan McCormick, passed away on 4/26/07 also from NB. This disease is a beast! Our prayers are with your family. Connie McCormick (Angel Ryan's proud gramdmother) Close
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on you for helping someone else that's walking in the path that he walk. (you know he is happy)
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