19 years ago today and 14 years ago tomorrow  / Mum, Charlie And Olivia
Jack, this time 19 years ago I was in labour, you made your entrance to this world and you were amazing in every way. I'd loved you from the second I knew I'd conceived you and that love grew deeper every day. You made me a mother. Before you, I was just a woman, but when you were born a mother was born too, that was the most precious gift you could give me. I was so blessed to have you. Then your brother came along and the bond between you two was so strong. We wish so much much we could have shared more than just 5 birthdays with you Jack, we wish so much you were here today celebrating being 19 years old. We miss you so much. 14 years ago our worlds were torn apart and it hurts as much now as it did then. Time doesn't heal, it changes how we cope, but the pain and emptiness will always be there for us both, until we are all together again. We love you until the end of time and then we'll still love you. Always & Forever. To Infinity & Beyond. Xxxxxxxxx Happy birthday love mum, Charlie & Olivia. Xxxxx Close

Christmas 2016  / Your Ever Loving Mum
No hugs for you, no Christmas cards, No gifts beneath the tree. I wish you could have stayed, But it wasn't meant to be. And not a single day goes by, When I don't long for you, My heart is truly broken, But your memory pulls me through. So while you're spending Christmas With the Angels up above, I will think of you, as always, And send you all my love. And if I could have just one wish Or Christmas dream come true, I'd pray sweet Jack, with all my heart, For yesterday and you. Miss you so much my Angel. Xxxxxxx Close

13 years today.  / Your Ever Loving Mum, Brother Charlie &. (sister Olivia xxxx )
Dearest Jack, Today we feel empty, I heard on the radio this morning that there was an earthquake in the Midlands just as there was 13 years ago today! We had the most beautiful rainbow that lasted hours last night as the sunset and shone a magical glow across the cemetery for the end of your last birthday on earth. I feel you around us. I've been sat by your grave for two hours with the warmth of sun on my face. I feel you in that warmth. It's drying my tears like you are wiping them away. As I'm writing this the breeze is picking up and whispering through the trees, like a voice. I know you are with me. Charlie couldn't come. I know you will always have your hands on his shoulders, you will always be beside him when he feels so alone and he shuts out the world. He misses you so much and he's struggling this year more than most because he can't remember and you should be 18. So please continue to guide him through his dark days and keep him safe. Olivia wishes she knew you, I know she does, she has always spoken your name in her sleep, and giggled. I know you've visited her in her dreams and you've been beside her in hospital. I know you were with me too, each time I was in hospital, and it's your strength that gets me through everything. You will always be my strength, my guiding light, through all the darkness the years have brought, you always bring us through, your courage, bravery and determination live on through us, always, for eternity. Thank you Jack. You made me a mother. Before you I existed. But I wasn't a mother until 18 years ago when I was blessed to have you in my life. In those five precious years you taught me everything, so many lessons, so much knowledge, emotion, happiness, things some people never experience, and I am so grateful to have shared each and every one with you. You made me a mum and you made me who I am. I promise I will always be that mum, to Charlie and to Olivia, I no matter how far away, or that I can't see you, I will always feel you in my heart and I will always be your mum. Always and forever. To infinity.... and Beyond! I love you more than words can say. Mum. Xxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxx (5 for the years I held you, 13 for years I couldn't) Close

18th Birthday.  / Your Ever Loving (Mum)
I only have a picture now, A frozen piece of time, To remind me of how it was, When you were here, and mine. I see your smiling eyes, Each morning when I wake, I talk to you, and place a kiss, Upon your lovely face. How much I miss you being here, I really cannot say, The ache is deep inside my heart, Especially today. You should have had so many years, To watch your life unfold, And in the mist of this, Watch me, your Mum grow old! I hope you're watching from above, And see how your cake turned out, How I wish it was not made of flowers, And I could see you blow your candles out. Today you should be eighteen Jack, A strapping man with eyes so blue, A heart of gold, A lending hand, That's how I imagine you. You fought a battle, long and hard, Did all you could to survive, But the Angels came for you, my boy, And you'll be forever five. Missing you more than words can say. Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close

Christmas Memories of my Son  / Lena (Mum)
Thinking of you and missing you, More than words can ever say. For life seemed to change forever, On the day you went away. And this seasons lost its sparkle, Now you are no longer here. Gone is your warmth and laughter, And those feelings of good cheer. But each night there in the distance, Shines a brilliant Christmas star. Which is your way of showing me, Just exactly where you are. And on Christmas Day as always, And on each day yet to come, You'll be loved, missed and remembered, For you mean the world, my son. Close

17th birthday  / Your Ever Loving Mum Xxxxxxxxxxxx
What would you be doing? College? Work? What would you be into? What would I be wrapping for you to open when you wake? A bundle of driving lessons maybe? I bet you'd have a girlfriend. You were always loved by the girls. I miss you so much. 12 years since I held you tight on your birthday. 12 years since I begged you not to go I'll take you flowers. Flowers for the day you were born. Flowers for the day you went away 5 years later. I love you Jack. To infinity & beyond.... Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close

Christmas and New Year 2013  / Your Ever Loving Mum Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I can shed a tear because you have gone, Or I can smile because you lived. I can close my eyes & pray you will come back, Or I can open my eyes & see all you have left. My heart can be empty because I can't see you, Or my heart can be full of all the love that you showed me. I can turn my back on tomorrow & live yesterday, Or I can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. I can remember you & only that you have gone, Or I can cherish your memory & let it live on. I can cry & close my mind, be empty & turn my back, Or I can do what you would want, Smile, open my eyes, love and go on. As the 12th year without you begins at midnight and the new moon rises, the past will be just that, but I will always have you in my heart and in my memories, my beautiful boy, my love, my strength and my hope. Always and forever. To Infinity.... and Beyond! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close

16 years since I first held you....  / Your Ever Loving Mum Xxxxxxxxxxx Xx (Mum)
Jack, 16 years ago I held you for the first time, you were my world, my hopes, my dreams, everything. 11 years ago I held you in my arms for the last time, but I still hold you in my heart and always will. I still feel your presence and your strength. You are part of me and that will never change. Charlie misses you. He doesnt say much but I see his pain. Olivia loves you too, she has a bond with you noone can explain. I hope your 16th birthday is as magical in heaven as it would have been here with us. Loving you to infinity... and beyond! Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close

Condolences / Mary Power (none)
Even though we never had the pleasure of meeting you Jack. I wanted to say that your Mum and family have done so much for my grandson Connor because of who you were. Thank you i know what a special little boy you were as your family are too and they work so hard in your name. Chrismassy love and hugs xxxxxxx Close

Nothing / Your Ever Loving Mum Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I have tried. I have closed my eyes and tried. But the words won't come this year. There is no poem like every other year that's passed. Just a huge empty void. All I can think is ten years, TEN YEARS!!! I can't sleep. I feel cold. There's a lump in my throat. A pain in my chest. My heart is aching. It doesn't get easier. TEN YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jack, I will draw on your strength this weekend, a 15th birthday that will never be, for you are forever 5, a decade without you. Where has the time gone? I love you you as much now as I back then, I couldn't possibly love you more. I am sorry I have nothing but this to write. There are no words.... Even Charlie cried - but had no words.... Nothing. Close

Christmas 2011  / Your Ever Loving Mum Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
There are no explanations, and we wonder every day just why the good Lord chose to take our little one away For though you meant the world to us, your time on earth was brief and now it seems there is no end to all the pain and grief But even though you came to us for just a little while the memories you left behind so often make us smile This Christmas, just as always, special thoughts will keep you near and though we cry to think of you, there's LOVE in every tear. Missing you so much, loving you for eternity. Xxxxxxxxxxxxx Close

Thinking of you all...  / Amanda From Ontario Canada (none)

Thinking of you all as another holiday approaches without your sweet little one. 

You are in my prayers and heart.

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T'was the night before Christmas - Grieving Mum  / Your Ever Loving Mum. XXXXXXXXXXXX

'Twas the month before Christmas and I dreaded the days,
That I knew I was facing - the holiday craze.
The stores were all filled with holiday lights,
In hopes of drawing customers by day and by night.
As others were making their holiday plans,
My heart was breaking - I couldn't understand.
I had lost my dear child a few years before,
And I knew what my holiday had in store.
When out of nowhere, there arose such a sound,
I sprang to my feet and was looking around,
Away to the window I flew like a flash,
Tore open the shutters and threw up the sash
The sight that I saw took my breath away,
And my tears turned to smiles in the light of the day.
When what to my wondering eyes should appear,
But a cluster of butterflies fluttering near.
With beauty and grace they performed a dance,
I knew in a moment this wasn't by chance.
The hope that they gave me was a sign from above,
That my child was still near me and that I was loved.
The message they brought was my holiday gift,
And I cried when I saw them in spite of myself.
As I knelt closer to get a better view,
One allowed me to pet it - as if it knew -
That I needed the touch of its fragile wings,
To help me get through the holiday scene.
In the days that followed I carried the thought,
Of the message the butterflies left in my heart -
That no matter what happens or what days lie ahead,
Our children are with us - they're not really dead.
Yes, the message of the butterflies still rings in my ears,
A message of hope - a message so dear.
And I imagined they sang as they flew out of sight,
"To all bereaved parents - We love you goodnight!"

-By Faye McCord - TCF, Jackson, MS

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It's Here Again.  / Your Ever Loving Mum XXXXXXXXXXXXXX

It's here again

How quickly it comes

In a blink of an eye

Another year has passed by.

This year makes 9

Without you on earth

Twice the time you were here

Though I am sure you are near.

If I close my eyes

I can feel you beside me

I can feel you in my heart

We'll never truelly be apart.

It's a comfort to believe

You watch over us all

I whisper goodnight

But dream of holding you tight.

It's your birthday again

I can only bring flowers

How much would you have grown

If you were still home?

14 Years old

Party cinema day out?

But what can I do

There's no party without you.

I miss you so much

There's a hole in my soul

A huge empty space

A dark lonely place.

9 years is a long time

But time can not heal

There's no end to the pain

Until I'm with you again.

Jack my heart is still breaking

I wish time could roll back

I long for what used to be

With you physically here with me.

I know you are near

In spirit you are close

But though this may be

It's not comforting me.

I wish I could hold you

I wish I did more

I should have fought stronger

To keep you here longer.

Neuroblastoma

Is more than a cancer

It's a demon that thrives

On destroying our lives

It stole you away

My beautiful boy

And although you have gone

The demon lives on.

It consumes the souls

Of the ones still remaining

Although you are free

It's still hurting me.

It's relentless

It's evil

It's selfish and cruel

It's devious cunning and nobody's fool

But in your memory

And in honour of you

And all that you stood for

I'll do all I can do.

I love you Jack

We have such a bond

It will last all eternity

“to infinity and beyond”

 

Happy 14th Birthday in Heaven my Beautiful Angel. XXXXX

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Love to your family  / Tracey Norton (Family friend )

Just wanted to say that I know your sister and mum and think you have a wonderful family and are missed a great deal but not forgotten.

 

Love Tracey and Daniel x x x

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All of Me by Angus and Julia Stone  / Your Ever Loving Mum XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (MUM)
Is there a cure for this pain Meibe I should have something to eat But food wont take this emptiness away Im hungry for you my love Well I made it through another day In my cold room On scraps and pieces left behind I survive on the memory of you All Of me is all for you Youre all I see All of me is all for you Youre all I need Is there a remedy for waiting For loves victorious return Is there a remedy for hating Every second that Im without you All of me is all for you Youre all I see All of me is all for you Youre all I need All this life is all for love Its the only road Ill choose And every street and avenue Only one will lead me back to you Beautiful song Beutiful lyrics for my beautiful boy. Miss you so much. Love always. To Infinity.... and Beyond. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX Close

If I could be where you are.  / Your Ever Loving Mum XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (Mum - always and forever )
Where are you this moment
Only in my dreams
You're missing but you're always
a heartbeat from me.

I'm lost now without you.
I don't know where you are.
I keep watching
I keep hoping
but time keeps us apart.

Is there a way I can find you?
Is there a sign I should know?
Is there a road I could follow
to bring you back home?

Winter lies before me
Now you're so far away
In the darkness of my dreaming
The light of you will stay

If I could be close beside you
If I could be where you are
If I could reach out and touch you
And bring you back home.


Is there a way I can find you?
Is there a sign I should know?
Is there a road I could follow
to bring you back home?

To me...


Enya - from the Album Amartantine
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Seeing Differently  / Your Ever Loving Mum. XXXXXXXXXX (Mum)

As I look up to the skies above
The stars stretch endlessly--
But somehow all those rays of light
...Seem dimmer now to me.

As I watch the morning sun appear
The shadows still don't fade—
As if the brightest light of all
Was somehow swept away.

Though I see the branches swaying
And watch their dancing leaves--
The echoes carried on the wind
Don't sound the same to me.

As I listen to the morning birds
Sing softly from afar--
It seems to be a mournful tune
That echoes in my heart.

Another day has come again
As time moves surely on--
But nothing now seems quite the same
To know that he is gone.

The days and weeks and months ahead
Will never be the same--
Because a treasure beyond words
Can never be replaced.

The loss cannot be measured now
The void cannot be filled--
And though someday the grief may fade
His mark will live on still.

For even with my heavy heart
I know that I've been blessed
To have been one who's life he touched
With warmth so infinite.

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